Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Santa's Little Elf

I can't believe it is already December! I decked Elle out in her first of many Christmas outfits today.

The pants are a wee bit snug so I don't know if they will even last the month of December! Now that she is getting half milk and half formula - she has gained a lot of weight. It also helps that her heart is functioning properly now so her little heart isn't pumping nearly as hard as it was before surgery.

Elle and I had a pretty low key day. We did have big plans to go to my favorite resale shop and load up on clothes for her but it was too icky outside to do too much. We spent the day doing her exercises and listening to Christmas music. She was more entertained by the bow on her shirt than anything else. Since she is growing so much, her thumbs now get stuck inside her pacifiers! - it's like a perma - paci! I wish I could say that I am super productive during the day - but that is just not the case. Pre Baby - I had grand plans of having a clean house, with dinner always prepared for Lee and a clean baby already in pjs by the time he got home. I must have been delusional during my pregnancy because none of that happens now. Elle is a handful! She's not a bad baby - she just demands a lot of attention. I long to be the type of wife/mother that does have a clean house and dinner ready for my hubs. I pray that nightly - for the Lord to guide me in becoming a great mother and wife and to give me the strength to change into the person I want to become - the person I wish I was. After writing that- my prayer should really be for Him to mold me into the type of person HE wants me to be! I even made a list of rooms in our house and what days I would clean them. I've already gotten off track and it's only Tuesday. It's all so overwhelming! I will say that I am super envious of moms that have it all together. One day....one day...
This afternoon I took Elle to physical therapy. She is really making progress and doing so great. For her reward today for doing so well - she got to experience the ball pit. It was pretty awesome if I do say so myself. Michelle, her therapist, held her while she kicked her little legs and sat there in awe of everything that was around her. I snapped a pic and will upload it later when my phone decides to start working.
I am super excited about a phone call I received today from the Texas School for the Blind. Because of Elle's coloboma in her eye and because she is deaf - she qualifies for deafblind services. I'm not too sure what it all entails yet - but the ladies I spoke with today were so nice and so helpful. It was so refreshing to hear people that were willing/wanting to help after I spent the afternoon yesterday on the phone with a lady from the Department of Age and Disability Services. It is so discouraging to talk to someone on the phone who is so disdainful and difficult to communicate with when all I want to do is help my daughter. Ugh! I just want what every parent wants- whatever is best for their child!

6 comments:

MZP said...

when you meet a mom who actually has it all together, let me know. i think we all struggle with this strange view of perfection that no one really achieves. just do the best you can and don't get too frustrated. obviously you can strive to be better, but remember that as long as you're all alive and well at the end of the day you've done a good job :)

Andi said...

Elle is precious! You know you can also apply through social security for disability benefits for visual impairment. It follows her for her entire life and eventually transfers to her as an adult. We are in the process of applying and it takes a while but it's just a thought. :) No one told me and I found out on my own so I wanted to pass that along. I feel like a wreck myself these days, like I can't keep up with everything in the home....ahhhh! You're doing great sweet mommy and I hope you have a wondeful holiday! x x

Shannon said...

Elle Belle, no doing splits in those candy cane pants or you will rip your drawers...for sure! I wonder if those snazzy leopard and debra pants we wore in college fit the same way. Oh boy...those were the years.

Shannon said...
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Shannon said...

I meant ZEBRA pants, not debra pants! ahhha

Ruth said...

Lisha,
you will never meet a Mom who says, "I wish I'd had a cleaner house and hadn't spent so much time with my kids." I'll bet your Lee would rather have a wife and daughter who are thriving than a perfectly clean house.

Give yourself a break, and listen to what God tells you HE wants you to be!!!!